WHO I REALLY AM!!! DRUNK! SO HONEST!!!!!

I have no plans for the future, everyone I make, I fail at it before it even starts.  I am judged before anyone bothers to get to know me.  I feel alone and afraid.  I am married but only because I think he feels sorry for me.  Every talent that I have is useless.  My whiskey makes me happier than most people.  The only person that actually wants to help me out, probably just wants to fuck me.  I have no family, none that will claim me anyway.  I have done nothing but fuck up since I was born.  I would rather have a joint then a job. I would rather be broke than miserable.  Money is stupid when only the rich can touch it.  I spend more money on the care of my pets than I do on myself.  I think that in general people are good, which also means that I am naïve.  I pretend to be something I am not so people will like me.  It hurts me when I am automatically judged because of my tattoos and not my mind or heart. I want to punch most Christians because they are some of the fakest sinners that I know.  I made this blog to reach out to others in hopes of helping, connecting, understanding, or something.  In six years, this blog has done nothing for me or anyone else.  I can type faster, that's about it.  Does anyone even care that I dump my heart on this page?  Oh wait, no because they have lives and people with lives don't read blogs.  Fact!  Fuck it. No one cares, I get it.