2 Rules that You Should Break.

I am not saying that anyone should break the law but there are a few rules that I feel must be broken for you to live a fulfilled life.
In no particular order,
SPEED-  I'm not saying haul ass and kill someone or yourself but if the time presents itself to safely speed, then you totally should, it feels amazing, wind in your hair, radio up all the way.

STAY OUT FOR LONGER THAN YOU PLAN- It happens almost every time, you go out, you have fun, and you set a time to leave, sometimes.  As soon as you leave, something good always happens and you miss it because you were tired.

I just moved to the country. :\

Yep, this city girl is living amongst the cows and pick up trucks.  I hate it.  I mean I didn't live in New York or anything but it was a good sized fun college town and I now reside in a place where people say y'all and going to town?  I am not made out for this style so this should be interesting to say the least.  I love cities, not huge ones but big ones.  There are 4,000 people here and I am pretty sure that most of them are related.  No fast food places, except the crappy ones.  I am a fan of the arts, music and big city living.  Nashville, Dallas, Austin... Oh my, I love them all.  There are cows so close that I can smell them.  My first trip to the grocery store today was fun.  I had on my high heel slut boots and my hot pink Dollhouse coat, so I looked excellent but the shop goers did not appreciate my style as they stared on with they're what the fuck, not in my town looks.  I simply smiled and kept on strutting, what else can you do?  Haters are everywhere, even in the fucking sticks.

Relentless Honesty Part 1

It's been time to get real here. I always try to post things that are positive and keep people thinking happy thoughts. But the truth is, life is really shitty most of the time. Everyone sugar-coats everything and tells lies to make things seem like they are different then what they really are. I'm exhausted and I am so ready to speak open and honestly about the life that I live. I'm not some bubbly person who is happy and positive. I'm really a fucking crazy person with crazy shit happening to me. I'm not ashamed of my life, in fact I wouldn't change a thing. Every fucked up situation has made me who I am and come to find out, I'm way stronger than I ever gave myself credit for. So this post is only the beginning. I did name my blog Stained Life for a reason and it's about time to share it with the world. Hopefully someone, anyone, can learn something from the shit show that is my life. Enjoy.

How to be Happy!

Rule #1 You only get one life so it is almost imperative that chances are taken on a regular basis.

  I know it sounds simple and it really is, follow it and you will have happiness in your life.  When we regret the things we didn't do or should have done, we actually cause more stress in our lives because we are constantly blaming ourselves for our current situation and we try to link it to a regret we have to make it easier for us to accept.  Yes I am crazy.

Rule #2  Surround yourself with happy people, and stay away from negativity.

Again my rambling ass will say that this is something you have to do,  to not want to kill yourself because your life sucks.  Being around bitchy or negative people will only cause you to feel the same, it rubs off.

There is no rule 3 because if you actually follow 1 and 2 then you don't need 3.   :)

Accept Things that do Not Directly Effect You.

The world has changed.  People have tattoos, piercings, crazy hair colors and are not your common everyday person.  That doesn't mean that they are bad people, it just means that they aren't like you. The sooner we all learn to tolerate things and people that do not effect our personal lives, our family, or our well being....who gives a shit?  If we tolerated as much as we judged, the world would be a kinder, gentler place.  We as a society have so many bigger problems to woryy about than Kate and her pink hair, or John dating Jim, it's time to move on. Life is too short. You never know what could happen, we cannot predict the future. Let's try to all get along and be peaceful to each other. It's time. 

Mary Kay, It's all Lies and Crazy People.

I posted two blog entries about my experience with The Mary Kay Company.  One, made the products sound great and the company was great and blah blah blah.  The second was about 2 months in while working for the company and it was about how I didn't feel that I fit in, felt judged for my tattoos, and wasn't selling shit.  I had comments posted from readers that were truly concerned about me and warning me to get out NOW.  I wish those comments happened before I joined that wretched company.  I write about my life experiences and I hope people will interact with me, leave me comments and wait to see how I fix my fuck ups.  Mary Kay Ash was probably a really great woman but I am sure that she is rolling over in her grave at how her company has turned out.  It's all lies and commission that never comes.  Stupid meetings about how to sell their shitty makeup and basically telling you that if you want to make money, you have to get people to join and get their commission plus a sign on bonus for you.  WTF?  So it's a cult, get people to join by telling them lies all while knowing that they will fail, just like you.  It makes me sick to my stomach to think of all the women out there being exploited by this company.  Pinktruth.com is a wonderful site that tells you how it is from real people who have been there.  I wish I would have known about that site before I signed my soul away.  Now all I can do is try to help others not fall prey to those crazy ladies.

Finding Happiness from Within (part 2)

I keep hearing the phrase "If you don't love yourself, you can't love anyone else" and it's finally sinking in.  It makes so much sense when you really think about it.  It's a scary thought and it puts pressure on the person that does not love themselves.  It is extra work, you have to learn to love yourself before you can love another. Well shit, that's just another obstacle, just a speed bump.  You can learn to love yourself, you first have to learn that what other people think of you doesn't matter.  You can't let stupid shit get to you, and at the time, that stupid shit seems big and scary but once you're past it and you look back, you almost feel dumb for worrying so much.  It gets easier the more you do it.  You can't under any circumstance let another person's opinions affect how you live your life.  If nothing else, I am learning that this is a process that takes different times for everyone. As long as you're a good person, who cares what whatserface says. She probably has a closet full of bones.  ;)

I am a Writer.

Whether I am published or not, (and I am not) I am a writer.  I breath, eat, shit, writing.  It's all I think about; poetry, songs in my head, stories in the night, it's my life just as the person I am, it's my soul.  Will I ever be published?  I really don't care, now don't get me wrong, that would be amazing but my real purpose is only to touch someone's life by something that came from my soul. To help someone, to make a person not feel alone, to be there for a human in need, that's what I want.  It makes me so happy when anyone reads my words so I want to thank the people who have supported me and made comments.  Please feel free to interact with me, I am just a human and I make mistakes.  It's ok to make mistakes... it's the way you handle it that defines it all.  I am very random and I appreciate people keeping up.  LOL.  

Finding Happiness Within. Part One

I am 36 years old and I am just now trying to figure out this happiness thing.  People say that you have to have happiness from within yourself to show happiness on the outside.  I used to call bullshit but as I sit here the unhappiest that I have ever been in my life, I guess it's time to try something different.  Most of the time I am anxious, nervous, lonely, scared, sad, depressed and pissed off.  It's so draining to feel all of the things that I feel so it's time to pull these layers of shit back one by one and figure out why I suck so bad.  This is only the beginning of a journey that even I myself do not know where it will lead.  A mystery, my favorite.  :)