Bearded dragons are awesome pets

okay, everyone should have a bearded dragon, they are the coolest most awesome pet I have ever had. They have awesome personalities. The hubby and I started with one. Then of course I talked him into getting her a friend, then we kind of rescued an older one so now with 3 bearded Dragons,  it is safe to say that I'm in love. They are reasonably easy to take care of once you get your tank setup. It's so much fun to watch them grow, I know the big ones look cool as shit but trust me,  get a baby that way you can raise it to be used to the way you live and adapt.  Some people say you can't have them together at feeding time. That's not true with ours.  We have a female (angel) and our male Brutus that are in the same thing together all the time and they love to be around each other. They even get along good with our cat, I have photographic evidence of this. My one cat Bronco knows and loves Brutus.  They are buddies.  I've always been a dog and cat person but these amazing little creatures will definitely steal your heart.

I miss my mama so much, it still hurts everyday.

life will not be the same without my mama. Its been a year and a half since she went to heaven, everyone tells you that it gets easier with time and to them I say a big fuck you. Maybe your mom  but mine was super special. She gave her entire life to help others, she always put others happiness before her own. She was the most selfless person I will ever have been so lucky to have had as a mama. She was my best friend, I told her everything & I mean everything. She knew me the best and loved me the most. Everytime something happens whether it is good or bad I always went straight to my mom. She was my everything. She was only 63, it seems so unfair. Not a day goes by that I don't think about her and miss her. I move forward like it's all OK but inside there is a huge hole and they're always will be.

why I write....... to what the fuck?

I write because it's cleansing to my soul. I had a diary when I was a little girl, a journal is a teenager and now I have a blog. When I was a kid, I hid my diary like it contains gold. As an adult, I don't give a shit. Anyone can read what I write now and hopefully, maybe I will help someone out through a time in their life or at least give them a laugh about my f***** up life.  No one is perfect and no one should set any goals to be. I don't even like to make plans I am more of a fly by the seat of my pants type of person. Plans fall through and then there is disappointment.  No plans means no disappointment. Believe it or not in my world it works. I love spontaneity, that's what keeps me guessing about what's around the next corner. I have no plans for a career, I'm in a good position at the job I have now I have benefits, salary, Commission and 401 K. I'm not planning on going anywhere so I'm happy. I have amazing employees that helped me through thick and thin and that honestly consider friends. I know that you're not supposed to be friends with your employees but I consider myself an unconventional manager. I treat my employees like I would want to be treated when I was an employee. But more on that later in another blog entry. This scatterbrained entry started about one thing and led to what the fuck? That's my life. More to come.

I haven't written in forever. So much has happened.

Oh shit where to begin. I am still working at the tobacco store but I'm the manager now. I love my job and enjoy interacting with customers on a daily basis. My mother and best friend passed away July 17 2012 its been really hard for me to get through. Believe it or not being around my friends and customers helped me more than I could ever imagine my husband was nothing but a rock, I don't know what I would have done without him he knew just what to say when to say it how to say it and when not to say it. I have become a more kinder gentler and definitely more loving person from all of this happening? I definitely appreciate life more than I could ever imagine before and I wouldn't trade any decision I've made because it is led me to where I am now which is a good place.