My Job Sucks (entry three) I'm Seeing a Pattern Here.... I quit!

So if anyone has been following my bitch fest about my new job then I am sure this was expected..... I had a meltdown and quit my job.  I had enough, all in one day.....  I had money thrown at me, a package of Levi Garret thrown at me and the icing on my cake of shit was being taken for ten bucks by some bitch who swore she gave me a $20 but she lied through her snaggled meth teeth.  I counted my drawer and I was $10 short.  Bitch.  She even had the nerve to tell me that I look like the type of person who would try to take advantage of an old lady.  Pshhh, she wasn't that old.... she had the meth makeover going on.  So, I quit.  My boss and I talked the next day and I am going back to work.  She is kindly giving me some time to cool off.  We shall see, I don't know how much more abuse I can take from mean ass customers.  I hate that I let them get to me but unfortunately I wear my heart on my sleeve and maybe I need to grow a pair!!  Wait, I DO need to grow a pair!!!

 I will go back to work with the biggest smile on my face and be nice as shit to people.  I will kill their asses with kindness!!!  Kill em I say.  I am very lucky to have such an understanding boss.

Stop Being Mean to Cashiers who CAN get your Personal Information.

I am a cashier and I get treated like shit.  It is crazy how mean people are and they don't even realize that I can get their information and fuck with them if I wanted.  I won't, I would never do that, my mama raised me with morals and respect for others.  I would however toilet paper a house or two, don't get me wrong!!   :)

In my opinion most people who have had problems with identity theft,  probably pissed off the wrong cashier.  It's 2011, why the fuck are you still writing checks??  (except for bills) Knowing I am supposed to run it through a machine to make sure funds are there.  Hello???  Your information is being scanned into a computer.  I know your address, phone number and drivers licence number.  In some cases, the social security number is on the check.  Dumb-ass!!!  Luckily I am not like that but believe me, I know some people that are.

I was raised in the south where we are nice to our neighbor and even go out of our way to help others when needed.  What the fuck has happened to people to make them so mean.  I want to believe that most people are good.  I do not hold grudges and I disagree with people that do.  Life is too short to be so pissed off all the time.

Just saying, please think of someone else's feelings before you take your crappy life out on someone else.  It's not my fault that you suck.

We don't Have Healthcare.... We Have Sick Care. America sucks!!

I'm poor, I do not have health Insurance, hell I can barely afford my car insurance.  It sucks to have to pay all this money for something that may or may not happen.  I only pay car insurance because it's illegal not too.  :)
In fact, for about 5 years I was so broke that I would only get insurance once a year (just to get tags) then just stop paying it.  Not saying it's right but we do what we have to do sometimes.  I have Hyperthyroidism and it is a pain in my ass.  I am not on medication because I do not have a doctor and couldn't afford the office visits and prescriptions.  I suffer daily, the weight fluctuation, the sweats, the chills, the passing out, the anxiety, the depression, the headaches.... I could go on and on.  I have learned to deal with it but the fact is, I shouldn't have to.  I am a good person, a tax payer, even a productive member of society.  I don't commit any crimes and consider myself to be a good human being.  I think my friends would agree.  Point is, I can't get help until I pass out and have to go to the emergency room.  That is my doctor, I have no choice.  I am not alone, it is sad the way our country treats it's family and that's what we should strive to be like.... more like a family that helps each other instead of watch them all suffer.  My disease is curable, but will they won't spend the money once to fix me forever, they wanna treat me repeatedly, knowing I don't have any money.  I call Bullshit.  I wish we had universal healthcare, we need it, our people are suffering and some even dying because they can't afford their medicines.  It's a sad sad country we live in.   I would move to Canada in a heart beat if I could.  They want to help their people not watch them slowly die.  Fuck America.  And before you get all pissed and say, "if you hate it so much, then move".... trust me, I would if I could.

Ooh I am SO mad at Netflix right now!!!

Just when I thought they were cool and better than Redbox, I was wrong yet again!!!  They can expect a big drop in customers in my opinion.  I could be wrong, people are lazy and will pay to get to sit on their ass.  I however, am still considering whether or not I will stay a Netflix member.  I am searching other options and have found plenty.  Netflix better realize.... people are mad at you.  Good luck with that.  Now I have to decide whether to keep my cable and Netflix, I don't think I can afford both.  Hmm??  Who will go?  Gonna have to do some more research and decide.  I do so love the independent movie section on Netflix.  Ugh, what to do, what to do??  Damn you Netflix.

I Just Discovered Dry Shampoo, I've so been missing out!!!

I always thought that dry shampoo was for nasty people who didn't bathe.  Boy was I wrong, well I am sure there are stinky people that use it so they don't have to wash their hair but I have found an awesome reason for it.  I am not a natural redhead, sorry to disappoint you all, I do however have the attitude of a redhead so I color that shit once a month.  Anyway, I am sick of seeing my hair color go down the drain so I bought some dry spray shampoo, it's cool as shit.  It's not all powdery and gross.  It smells nice while still dissolving oil.  It's a spray so it's easy to use.   It will save me so much money not only on shampoo but hair color as well.  It's new to me and I am in love.  My beautiful fake ass red will be brighter, longer!!  So lesson learned here.... Not just nasty uncleaned hippies use it.  Clean good smelling hippies do too!!     :)  :)

WTF is with all the Skinny Jeans??? I hate them!!!

Skinny jeans were not cool in the 80's and they sure as hell are not cool now.  There is only a small percentage that can pull them off anyway so why bother.  They look so clingy and tight at he ankles and I don't find them flattering at all.  And what the hell is the deal with guys wearing them??  Are you serious??  Oh wait, you must be gay.  Not that it's a bad thing.  I don't care who people love.  Just don't look stupid doing it.  How can these people look in the mirror and think, "damn I look good in these tight ass pants that squeeze everthing that's wrong with my body and highlight it".   I don't care what people wear.... to each their own.  I prefer the flare look.  Semi tight in the ass, (no load dropped look) I don't want it to look like I have a penis, slightly tight at the knee, then flare out slowly and poof a bit at the ends.  I don't ask for much.  lol.  I wish bell-bottoms would come back.  Those were cool, maybe not the super huge ones but I want to cover my big ass size 9 feet at the same time.  Skinny jeans would make it look like I am on skis or something.  Not cool.

Finally I am Employed.... but it sucks. :( (entry one)

So after the economy went to shit, I was one of the many to lose their job.  It sucked ass going from making money and my husband being able to go to school and then BAM, He had to drop out of school and go back to doing construction.  He was going to school so he would NOT have to do that anymore, his back can't take it any longer.  Well, he is back doing construction, but this time he works for himself and that is much better for him.  I got a little 20 hour a week job at a tobacco shop, selling cancer and false dreams of lottery winnings.   It sucks.  I basically work the days that the other guy doesn't want to work.  Shit shifts I like to call them.   I work weekends and the days when the truck comes in.  I'm not sure how long I can take it.  People are stupid and they piss me off.   I wanna take that lottery card scratch off container thing and pull an Office Space on it. (take it to a field and beat it with a baseball bat for the people that suck enough to have not seen that movie)  The amount of money wasted on those stupid things is ridiculous!!!  I totally understand buying one every now and then but there are people that come in and spend a hundred dollars or more on scratch off's alone.  Believe me, I am in no position to tell people how to spend their money but DAMN!!  That's all I can say for now....  I get pissed off just thinking about that shit hole so I will stop while I am ahead and try to be positive!!!  Tomorrow is a new day, that just so happens to start at 6 fucking a.m.  :(

I'm glad Javier won The Voice

I know I bitched about Xenia not winning and I still think she WAS the voice but I am happy with the results.  I loved Javier from his first audition when he sang Time After Time, it was beautiful!!  Out of all the coaches I liked Adam the best and not just because he is hot as fuck.  Don't get me wrong, it helped but he truly seemed to care about each of his team members and wanted them to win for them..... not him.  It was really cool to see him happy when they did well, you could honestly feel the pride.  I felt the same about Cee Lo and Christina as well.  I think they did really good on the show.  I think they cared about their team as well and I enjoyed the coaches bickering, it added some spunk that is needed in such a scary competition  for these singers.  I still love the whole concept of the show itself and I can't wait for season two.  I understand the reasoning for a country coach but I still insist that it should not be Blake Shelton.  I am disappointed with his song choices for his team and felt the variety just wasn't there.  I mean damn, he assigned poor Xenia two songs by The Script, both sung by a man and both about love.  I longed for a girly upbeat song for her and I never got it.  It's like he just pulled random songs out of a hat,  a bad song hat.  Where was the variety??  I'm looking forward to seeing what the next go around will bring.  Maybe they should slide Reba in there in Blake's spot??  At least she would be a better coach.  Hell a monkey would do a better job than him and probably have a better personality as well.  Not that I am comparing Reba to a monkey because I am not, she rules!!  I do feel bad for the Blake Shelton bashing and I am sure in real life he is just swell, but stick to singing... not coaching.

Gay Marriage in New York, yet I Still Can't Smoke a Joint.....Backwards much??

I have nothing against people who are gay.  It makes no difference to me who someone loves and or marries.  I honestly could give a shit less.

Now what I don't understand is why marijuana is still illegal??   I just think we have our priorities fucked up along the way somewhere.  Big time!!!!!  I am happy for New York and every other state that recognizes same sex marriage.  Why the hell is our country so broke when we can make money off of a plant.  It's a plant.  I know, I know--  It's illegal.  I still don't understand why.  Alcohol kills more people but I can go get a beer right now.  Seems fucking stupid to me.  I am only expressing my opinion, which I am allowed to do by one of the  rights I feel I actually have left in this horrible excuse for a country.  It'a all about politics and money and most of all greed!!  I don't really talk politics on my blog much but when something seems so simple, I just don't get it.  Oh and our lack of tree problems.... duh, hello, start growing hemp and making paper and so many other things it's ridiculous.  Save the rain forest, plant some damn hemp.   The Constitution is printed on it yet I can't smoke it.  What the fuck?

Just when I though Redbox was cool, I discovered Netflix!!!

I was loving me some Redbox, I mean a dollar a day, hells yeah count me in.  Then I saw a commercial for Netflix and they were doing a free month with sign up so I thought what the hell, we'll give it a try.  My husband and I's old ass sure as hell don't use the Playstation 3 for anything else.  Oh my gosh it is amazing.  They have so many movies it's crazy and it just goes through the internet and bam..... movies, television shows, everything.  Oh my!!  I get lost trying to pick what to watch there is so many choices.  Even my Law and Order, I'm super happy about the choice to bring Netflix into my home.  I may never leave the house again.  What reason do I have?  Just a report to all my lazy peeps out in the world.

Thank You for Reading

I just wanted to take a second to thank everyone who takes the time to read my blog, no matter how ridiculous it is sometimes.  lol.   I enjoy writing so much and I just hope I connect with someone and maybe help them, even if it is only through laughter.  I have received so much positive feedback on my writings and just want everyone to know how much it means to me.  I may never be a famous writer....  hell, I may not even ever get published.  I am just having so much fun being honest and putting myself out there.  I only hope I reach even one person.  To give another human hope and understanding is sometimes the biggest gift in the world.  I understand and am here to say the bullshit that we go through is totally worth it in the end.
 Have faith that you are doing what's best for you and no one else.
 Be strong knowing that others have been where you are at and they are ok and we all will be ok too.

 Love hard and don't hold back.  We are not promised tomorrow so make sure all the people in your life know how you feel.  Regrets in that department suck, trust me.  That is all for now.  Again thank you all so much!!

Sometimes You CAN'T put it all out there.

I as a writer and blogger have found myself between a rock and a hard place and I don't like it.  I have always considered myself to be a true and honest writer but I now find myself holding back to spare the feelings of others.  I have gone over it in my head a million times and see no way that I can be honest about some things.  It sucks.  I want to put it all out there and scream it from the rooftop but I can't hurt others so I must suffer in silence.
 One of my main reasons for writing is to hopefully connect with people and maybe even help them if they have found themselves in similar situations.  Or if they just need a laugh.   I have a situation that has to remain anonymous and I feel like I am letting people down by not being honest.  How can I connect or help if I can't even be true to myself?   I don't really know what else to say except I am sorry for not being able to put it out there.

 Lesson here is..... Some things are better left unsaid.  Some things are better left well enough alone and the grass is no greener on the other side, it's a fucking mirage, get over it.  Be happy with what you have and don't question why things are the way they are. Just love it, every minute of it.

Sometimes life just sucks.

I don't really have much to say on this one.  Life just really sucks ass sometimes and there's nothing you can do about it.  Just suck it up and move on.  Do you really ever move on?  Does it ever really end?  Ugh, I am so frustrated with the way things go sometimes.  We choose our own path but sometimes we are wrong and it can't be taken back.  I am so angry right now and I don't even know why.  I am sick and tired of being angry.

Take My Advice, Brush Your Damn Teeth!!!

In February of this year my mother so kindly paid for me to go see a dentist.  I haven't been since my insurance ran out when I turned 18.  Anyway, so I had 19 cavities and severe gum disease.  No wonder I was in so much pain.  My awesome dentist sat down with me to work out a plan to fix my mouth.  It was expensive but today was my last appointment for fillings.  Whew.... Since February, I have had a dentist appointment every two weeks and it has sucked donkey balls.  If I just would have brushed my teeth three times a day and ran some floss through them bitches it would've saved me so much bullshit and my mama so much money.  I basically lost my job over this mess because my boss was a dick and he wouldn't work around my appointments, which were mainly in the morning and I worked nights but whatever.  He was an ass anyway.  Point is, all this crap could've been avoided.  And no I didn't lose my teeth because of a drug problem.  I know this is Arkansas but give me some credit.  I was just lazy and put it off and ate lots of sugar.  Not to mention my cherry coke and coffee addiction.  Oh and I smoke too so damn, triple whammy.  I am just glad it is all over and my teeth are pretty and white again.  I will make sure I do the whole check-up and cleaning thing which is all new to me.  I wish I would've gone to the dentist and started a long time ago, just getting a cavity here and there when I financially could.  Way cheaper than this mess was.  I am thankful for my mother for putting up the fundage for this pricey venture, much appreciated mama!!  Now I am ready to conquer the world and get a fucking job with a big ole smile on my face.  So everyone that reads this...... brush your damn teeth, and hit em with some floss!!

Ashton Kutcher on Two and a Half Men?? WTF?? I have an idea though....

So as we all know from past blogs, if you read it..... I am a huge Two and a Half Men fan.  I love the show.  Charlie sheen is crazy,  that is true but he can't be replaced.  CAN'T!!  How the hell are they gonna pull that one off???  I am curious so I will watch just to see but I doubt it will even be close to being as funny as it is with Charlie Sheen.  It did however get me to thinking.  Just for the record, I am an Ashton fan as well,  and he's just goofy looking enough to pull my idea off.  How cool would it be if they had Ashton show up as Charlie's grown and unknown child???  Charlie could freak out and leave to do some thinking and never return.  Then he sends a letter and leaves the house to his new kid and jets to start over on an island of drunken skanks.....  his own personal heaven.  It's a win win.  Alan and the kid can still stay and the drunk womanizing can continue. BAM!!  Your welcome CBS.